Why no treatment?

my son sits and waits.Now moved and confused to manzanita.Hes scared and really afraid of what his future holds.Im stuck here in a state of mind that is frightening as a mother and will be sending someone tomorrow to see him.i guess most people wonder why im not going.Well i have to for once cut me skirt tails and ensure my son never goes back to that hell hole ever again.People judge and proscecute me on a regular basis.but know one knows the pain that could be unleashed if given the opportunity.Leaving and seeing is more than the fear that i have for him.See my son is dieing slowly and i cant stop it.i guess im dieing too.Only in a different way .I have to do this and the courage and strenghth is with in my touch ,but i cant touch it .I hate this whole experience that is befor me.please dont punish me with you opinions.Just sit one day in a dieing mothers heart and the answer will be there.A motherscry .